Myself

I have decided that TV sucks. I thought I would be excited about the new shows and new episodes, wrong. I am thinking about canceling cable. You down load just about anything you want on your computer or ipod. I am currently watching an episode on HBO about Hiroshima. I do like depressing history shows about death.

I did get to watch America's Next Top Model (thanks Cassie for getting me hooked). I am really amazed how mean girls can be. Why to we always pick on the weak? To make ourselves look better? I can remember a friend told me one day that everyone was making fun of my socks. I wore the ruffly Sunday School ones. I really didn't think much about fashion back then. I was always a step behind. I know my friend was trying to help me, but it hurt my feelings. I cried to my mom, who of course took me right away to buy new socks.

As I got older the less I needed approval of others, but still hated the thought that someone might talk about me behind their back. Maybe that is way I have always tried to be laid back and every one's friend. Although trust me, I have run into a few people who do not like my personality. Thanks goodness I don't meet those people to often.

Even though I have many "friends", it is few and far the one's I feel safe around. And even the one's I feel safe around, I still go back and think about any conversations I might have had and wonder if I said anything inappropriate. I'll stress about it. I think I get this from my grandma.

I have decided the best way to feel good about yourself is to get out and focus on other's needs. When I sit at home and think about all the negative things in my life I loose focus and become depressed.

Well, Heath is screaming is head off and I am loosing my focus. I can just say that I am excited about the future and the opportunities that lay ahead!!