Sad Sunday

I slept 10 hours last night straight. I haven't done that in quite awhile. I am still missing my Brewer but I know he is doing well. I didn't realize how attached I was. If he was only half his size.

I am doing better as the day goes by. I spent a lot of time in the yard and cleaning the house. Threw away some junk. Still not done.

Power House was fun. The energy was none stop and the kids were really engaged. I am really amazed how my group as grown. I even had one of my kids from last year there today. I miss them all.

Tomorrow I plan on finishing the wallpaper on the other side of the kitchen. I am very scattered brained. I can get many projects going at once and not finish any of them. Isn't that ADHD?

He is gone

I am going to have to write this real fast. Brewer went home with a nice couple today, but I have done nothing but cry and feel sick to my stomach. I miss his companionship!!!!

Oh, early in the morning.....

at 3am Heath decided to join me, 10 min later Jeff came out to sleep on the couch because he couldn't sleep in the bed. So of course this woke the dogs up and I had to let them out. At 3:30 I took both dogs to bed with me. Heath decided it was time to play. Do you know that toy you push and it makes all the little balls go pop, pop, pop! Yes I heard this coming down the hallway, EARLY this morning.

I am going to switch between coffee and water all day and then crash for a nap!

Full Moon

Guess who will be taking a nap today? At least I have 4 hours under my belt. Actually the moon is beautiful! It feels nice to walk outside and not sweat to death. I have always been intrigued by the moon. My mom told me when I was a baby, I would look up at it a coo. I think she is making it up, but I do have an obsession with it. Maybe I'll start a moon cult.

I am not disappointed

The office was funny. Nothing like a cure for Rabies!

Thursday Thinkings

Angie- I am so glad we ate two meals today. I had really locked myself up in the house this week. I was beginning to talk to my pretend friends!

Amanda- I can't believe your in California. I miss you, but I know you are having a ball! I need a relative to move somewhere cool!

Andrea- Quit your job! Just kidding!

*Today I talked to someone who is interested in Brewer. It is a single guy with a Lab. I think it will be a good match!

*I saw a fight in the parking lot at gymnastics. I was a little scared, but I love drama.

*I made a joke how I got saved during a Handbell service.....can I say that?

*The Office begins in 15 min., it better be funny!

* I ordered a shirt that says: "Don't taze me bro!" UF Incident. I thought it was funny.

Myself

I have decided that TV sucks. I thought I would be excited about the new shows and new episodes, wrong. I am thinking about canceling cable. You down load just about anything you want on your computer or ipod. I am currently watching an episode on HBO about Hiroshima. I do like depressing history shows about death.

I did get to watch America's Next Top Model (thanks Cassie for getting me hooked). I am really amazed how mean girls can be. Why to we always pick on the weak? To make ourselves look better? I can remember a friend told me one day that everyone was making fun of my socks. I wore the ruffly Sunday School ones. I really didn't think much about fashion back then. I was always a step behind. I know my friend was trying to help me, but it hurt my feelings. I cried to my mom, who of course took me right away to buy new socks.

As I got older the less I needed approval of others, but still hated the thought that someone might talk about me behind their back. Maybe that is way I have always tried to be laid back and every one's friend. Although trust me, I have run into a few people who do not like my personality. Thanks goodness I don't meet those people to often.

Even though I have many "friends", it is few and far the one's I feel safe around. And even the one's I feel safe around, I still go back and think about any conversations I might have had and wonder if I said anything inappropriate. I'll stress about it. I think I get this from my grandma.

I have decided the best way to feel good about yourself is to get out and focus on other's needs. When I sit at home and think about all the negative things in my life I loose focus and become depressed.

Well, Heath is screaming is head off and I am loosing my focus. I can just say that I am excited about the future and the opportunities that lay ahead!!

Do you know who is a visitor?

Church Marketing Sucks


I am a little behind in reading this blog, but there is some good insight on a visitor's perspective on church.

Take a Look!

You got to look at my other site. There is a funny picture of Heath or maybe I just think it is funny because he is mine!

I just worked in the yard for an hour. I stink! I hate those bushes you have to make it look like all these round balls!


I searched online for plastic surgeons. For $110 a month, I can have a new tummy. Forget diamonds!

Thanks For The Memories

OK, so I spent most of my birthday doing laundry, but I was really behind. My husband brought me home a hamburger from Too Jay's. Then, took Kaelyn and they got be balloons, "My Little Pony" party hats, and cake! We had a nice time.

Thanks for all the Birthday Wishes and comments. It was a very relaxing day! I am still thinking about my dinner at Season's 52.

I just made it back from the grocery store realizing I forgot my English muffins and dog biscuits! But, I am enjoying my Cheez-It Cool Ranch and Cheddar! I also bought stuff to make chocolate chip cookies, Yum! I should have gone to the gym....maybe tonight!

Happy Pre Bday to ME!

I am writing in my favorite color in honor of myself!

I just had the most amazing best time with my BFF's ! Thanks ladies for the most amazing night! I enjoyed every part of it. You all are awesome! We will have to bring the men next time.

I love talking about end times. I am one of those people who could easily be obsessed with it. I think it is all the drama and excitement. It is so mysterious and everyone has an opinion. But I don't think we can really grasp how horrible it will be! I always say, I'll more than likely be dead, but just think....someone through your bloodline will experience the moment Christ comes back and be alive on earth.

I remember watching "A Thief In the Night" as a youth. I don't even remember who showed it to me, but it scared the crap out of me. I vividly remember a shaver shaking in the sink, but no one was there anymore. I really think I watched it on Halloween as a scary movie! Every time a helicopter flew over the house or the sky turned a strange color....I thought Jesus was coming!

I almost bought this movie at camp last year, but it was $30. It needs to be on the $6 value isle!!

It is late and I am tired, so more from me in the morning. Maybe I'll make a list of things you don't want to be caught doing during the Rapture.

Today's Bible Verse

“Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope.” (Romans 5:3-4)

This is one of my favorites!

Long Day

Tonight I write in Gold to honor UCF's Win!!

Jeff was at the game from 10-8, so I was home with the kiddies. I had promised Kaelyn we would go to Target. I decided to stop at "Old McDonald's" as Kaelyn calls it. I was really shocked at my total. 2 kids meals and one normal hamburger, med fri., and a med coke.......15.00!! I should have ordered a kids meal myself. Not to mention they forgot my coke and fries and I had to go back.

This brings me to customer service. When did people lose pride in their jobs? No matter what you make or do, you should do it the best of your ability. Many, many times....I have felt the fool trying to ask for something to be done the right way. I remember getting a chicken sandwich at Chili's and it was frozen inside. The manager told me it was the lighting and then proceeded to microwave it. He offered me a free desert. Whoopee! I think I am going to get Jeff to start a web site where you can rate customer service.

I also know there is another side where the customer can be a jerk too! I have to say, even thought the girl forgot my items. She was very friendly.

Jeff won't ever let me complain about my food, he knows they will spit in it.

So anyways, I went shopping with my two kids. I had a few hot flashes and close call panic attacks, but I survived. Should have taken the Zanax my source gave me for my trip to Ohio!

Where would they go?

I wonder where the unchurched will go this Sunday? Do we keep church the same 24/7 just hoping they will come around and visit and be "convicted"? or....do we love on them and make them feel welcomed?

Where will they go? Will they go where the preaching does nothing but tell them they are living a life full of wrongs!?! No!

People need to be loved first and shown Christ's Love? I assure you that the more they know and understand Christ, the more they will want to make changes in their live. Not out of guilt, but for a love a SAVIOR who died on a cross.

Oh, and my the way......C3 is for ME!

I Don't Think I'll Ever Get A Full Blog In!!

I had brought up to my mom, how when the girls from the Pregnancy Resource Center would come to church they would all sit in the back, trying to avoid the stares. I am sure they were judged because their sin showed.

What makes us want to be judges of who's sin is worse than the other? I do believe that each sin will have a different consequence and can make life changing events. It is funny how the people we think have the "biggest sins", are the ones who want to be loved the most.

I know when I have messed up in life, all I really want is someone to love on me and tell me everything is going to be alright. (Like the time I tried to run away from home with my Strawberry Shortcake sleeping bag and Pink Panther bike!)

God has really been changing my heart in this area. I am trying not to be judgemental, but more loving.

6am workout......

am I nuts!

I think I'll throw up now!

My spirit is quiet lately. If I let it, it can depress me, make me think something is wrong. But, I think God gives us these quiet times to rest, rest for the battles that lie ahead. You never know when disaster may strike!

I was going to write more, but my son is now in my lap......more later!

Sunday, Sunday is my Funday!

I am such a dork!

Today was my first day in Power House. I was a little nervous, but thought it went well. I really like the curriculum. It is easy to follow and I think the kids enjoy it too! It is amazing to watch everyone working together. I am so glad the youth helps!!

I've got my mind turning on a few service projects for the C3. I am excited thinking of all the different ways we can make a difference in the community.

Back to PH, we talked about Humility. I think this is a hard concept to grasp in a society that teaches you to be the best and do what it takes to get there. Although I do believe people have a natural talent for things and can be truly humble. But sadly, watch most reality shows and it is a long way from showing people who are humble!

IKEA

Grand Opening Events

Air out your camping gear!

Customers can begin lining up at IKEA Orlando at 9:00 AM on Monday morning, November 12, 2007 – in advance of our November 14 opening. We are going to be doing something special for everyone on opening morning so you do not have to be the first, second, or third customer in line* in order to share in the fun. Keep checking for updates! * There will be no specific prize given to just the first, second, or third customer in line.

The Fish That Won't Die

Mr. Finley won't die! For three years I have lived with this fish that is determined to out live me. I have tried to kill him. His water comes directly out of the tap. I am horrible about cleaning his bowl. He knows I don't want to take care of him, so he lives out of spite!!!

BTW-he is a beta fish

I am currently thinking of many ways I can relate this to my personal life and the people around me. I can definitely say that DETERMINATION is everything!

Question?

Where did the souls of people in the old testament go to when they died? I tried to look, but couldn't find anything.....I could understand anyways!

In other news.......I tried to go online and sign up to get my teaching certificate renewed. I was blocked out and had a hard time signing up. In the back of my mind, I felt God was saying stop! I really only want to go back to work to bring in more money for selfish reasons.

I believe there are seasons in our lives, where we are called to do certain things. Right now, I need to focus on my little ones and husband. Trust me there is enough to do around here, I would just rather pay someone to do it.

I think staying home is one of the hardest jobs, next to being a single mom, working, and raising children on her own.

Last night I was watching Fox news and they had this story:

Christian pastors in the Leesburg area are organizing a ‘United March for Jesus’ in support of Danny Harvey.

As we reported on Fox 35 last month, Harvey said he was fired from his post as Chaplin at the Leesburg Regional Medical Center after 8 years because he said hospital officials asked him to stop using the word ‘Jesus’ in his prayers with patients, some of whom weren’t Christian.

Harvey said he refused and because of that the hospital relieved him from his post. Now led by reverend George Mulford, people from 30 churches will rally and march in support of Harvey this Saturday in Leesburg. Organizers said they are expecting ‘hundreds’ at the march which starts at 8 a.m. Saturday.

Fox 35 wants to know; “Do you think this march is support of the fired Chaplin will make a difference?”

Some one's response:Harvey was fired because he did not obey the terms of his employment and ignored complaints of paying patients at the hospital. That's nothing to march about: it just seems like political showboating. Better 30 churches should band together and march out into the community to feed the hungry, give drink to the thirsty, clothe the naked, house the homeless, tend to the sick and visit the imprisoned on a regular basis, as Jesus taught in his Gospel.

Not that I am in totally agree, but it did get me to thinking about this person's last statement. We are always so eager to attack and band together when we are hurt or mad, but yet we often don't have the same passion when it comes to helping the needy. I am guilty of thinking there are enough people in the world already doing this, why would they need my help?

Amanda was telling me about a MOPS group that meets with mom's in prisons. How awesome and what a great ministry! I believe God has big plans for C3 doing great things in the community.

Bloggin Monday's

I have so far stayed away from the cold bug going around my house. I also got my plug to work again, so I can blog!

It is so cool to see how many new faces have stepped up to the plate to serve at C3. I am actually going to teach 2-3 graders during Power House. I am excited. I asked Monica if I get to be mean! Tee-Hee. I can be scary when I want! No really, I am looking forward to working with kids again. Poor Caleb can't get rid of his 2nd grade teacher!


I didn't blog much about it before. But it was weird being at my grandfather's funeral and seeing him in the casket. All I could think about....was his soul. I can say he is more than likely not in Heaven and it makes me sad. Your last breath is here on earth and your next in the worse place you can ever imagine. Not that I want to use scare tactics to make someone become a believer, but it is a sad thought.

I sometimes think this is why some people have a hard time dealing with salvation, they don't want to think that their loves ones won't be in heaven with them when they die. How do you get someone past this? I have someone right now in my life that has a hard time dealing with this issue and would rather go to Hell than Heaven, if there loved one would not be there.

OK, I have depressed myself!

I am so thankful for where I am in life and the people who surround me and lift me up! I can't imagine living in this world without friends and family. No matter how bad life gets, I always try to find something positive. Without God, I don't think I could survive it!

It is raining again!!!

My plug to my computer is broken again so I am at 51% until I make it to the Apple store. There goes my $100 rebate from iphone!

The dog is sick again and I think the other dog has caught it. Another $100!

The washing machine is leaking water out the pipe because it shakes faster than it is supposed to!

I think I am going to look for a job!

On a side note......I really enjoyed Barry's message. Maybe because I grew up in the same church as he did. I haven't been in service in three weeks. I miss worshiping.

Angie and Byron get better. We missed you guys!

I will blog again when I get a new plug, percentages are dropping fast!

Bean Plants

Who knew. I brushed some of the beans outside because I was to lazy to sweep them up. When I was outside last night, I noticed these strange "weeds" growing in the ground next to the patio. I am now a proud owner of bean plants. Beans anyone?

BTW-The beans are for the sand table I bought the kids. Instead of sand!

Honesty

I feel like I am living in an out of body experience. Time flies by so fast. The past two weeks or so have been blah for me. Not anything anyone has done.....I've just lost some of my motivation.

I want to finish my book, but can't seem to get back into it.

I want to finish Deuteronomy, have no interest.

My floors in the kitchen have needed to be mopped for three weeks, but I'd rather go shopping.

I want to finish painting my house, but I'd rather read blogs.

I have laundry, but I keep thinking it will magically do it itself!

I've got to find my focus. I've got to have better quiet times. I need to be more honest with myself.

Love you all!!!!

Very Worn Out!

I thought I would rest some while I was in Ohio. Never even got a nap. Got to eat lots of food and sugary deserts!

My grandfather passed away in the front of the house, at 90, edging the driveway. They think he had a massive stroke. The past year he had been really sick. Below is a copy of his obituary.

KELHOFFER, Howard C. "Ossie" Age 90 of Middletown, Ohio was born on December 2, 1916 in Hamilton, Ohio to parents Daniel and Mary Mistler Kelhoffer. Howard lived many years in the West Elkton area and attended West Elkton Schools. He was retired from the Ohio Operating Engineer and was a 40-year member of the International Union of Operating Engineers. A United Sates Army Veteran of WWII, a life member of the American Legion Post #218 and D.A.V. of Middletown. Howard enjoyed flying his own plane and was a past member of the former Warren County Flying club. He was a talented builder and built several houses in the area. He was also an avid gardener. A member of the Unity Church of Today. Mr. Kelhoffer is survived by his wife Miriam of 63 years, two sons Lynn Howard (Cheryll) of Middletown, David Earl (Scarlett) of Springboro; four grandchildren, 7 great grandchildren and 4 step-grandchildren. He was preceded by an infant son, Gregory; sister Eleanor; and brothers Robert, Herbert, Newton. Funeral services will be held at 2:00 p.m. on Tuesday, September 4, 2007 at Lindloff- Zimmerman Funeral Home in Gratis, with Greg Wissman officiating. Burial will be at Fairview Cemetery, Gratis. Friends may call at the funeral home on Tuesday from 1:00 to 2:00 p.m. donations may be made to the Unity Church of today, Monroe, Ohio.

I was sad to leave my grandma. She asked if I would sleep with her while I was there. We stayed up all night talking. I am glad I was able to make it up there on such short notice.

Mad Rush

My grandfather passed away last night, so I am in a hurry to get everything ready before I leave. I have so many things to say, so look for more posts when I get back.

Am I Bleepin Crazy

That is what some lady yelled at me as I was walking to the gym in a shopping center. She was turning the corner as I was walking....I saw her. I assumed she would slow down since it was a shopping center. Oh well!

I got this great idea to turn the water/sand table into a bean table, like at Kaelyn's school. I have done nothing but sweep beans for two days!

On the way to the gym, I forgot my card and wallet and had to turn around. Once I left the gym I started heading home....forgetting I wanted Wendy's. Went back, and no lie, waited 20 min. Got home at 8:30.

Heath has a new hobby of coloring on my floors and has decided he does not want to go to bed at night!

Glad today is a new day!