Sad Sunday

I slept 10 hours last night straight. I haven't done that in quite awhile. I am still missing my Brewer but I know he is doing well. I didn't realize how attached I was. If he was only half his size.

I am doing better as the day goes by. I spent a lot of time in the yard and cleaning the house. Threw away some junk. Still not done.

Power House was fun. The energy was none stop and the kids were really engaged. I am really amazed how my group as grown. I even had one of my kids from last year there today. I miss them all.

Tomorrow I plan on finishing the wallpaper on the other side of the kitchen. I am very scattered brained. I can get many projects going at once and not finish any of them. Isn't that ADHD?

He is gone

I am going to have to write this real fast. Brewer went home with a nice couple today, but I have done nothing but cry and feel sick to my stomach. I miss his companionship!!!!

Oh, early in the morning.....

at 3am Heath decided to join me, 10 min later Jeff came out to sleep on the couch because he couldn't sleep in the bed. So of course this woke the dogs up and I had to let them out. At 3:30 I took both dogs to bed with me. Heath decided it was time to play. Do you know that toy you push and it makes all the little balls go pop, pop, pop! Yes I heard this coming down the hallway, EARLY this morning.

I am going to switch between coffee and water all day and then crash for a nap!

Full Moon

Guess who will be taking a nap today? At least I have 4 hours under my belt. Actually the moon is beautiful! It feels nice to walk outside and not sweat to death. I have always been intrigued by the moon. My mom told me when I was a baby, I would look up at it a coo. I think she is making it up, but I do have an obsession with it. Maybe I'll start a moon cult.

I am not disappointed

The office was funny. Nothing like a cure for Rabies!

Thursday Thinkings

Angie- I am so glad we ate two meals today. I had really locked myself up in the house this week. I was beginning to talk to my pretend friends!

Amanda- I can't believe your in California. I miss you, but I know you are having a ball! I need a relative to move somewhere cool!

Andrea- Quit your job! Just kidding!

*Today I talked to someone who is interested in Brewer. It is a single guy with a Lab. I think it will be a good match!

*I saw a fight in the parking lot at gymnastics. I was a little scared, but I love drama.

*I made a joke how I got saved during a Handbell service.....can I say that?

*The Office begins in 15 min., it better be funny!

* I ordered a shirt that says: "Don't taze me bro!" UF Incident. I thought it was funny.

Myself

I have decided that TV sucks. I thought I would be excited about the new shows and new episodes, wrong. I am thinking about canceling cable. You down load just about anything you want on your computer or ipod. I am currently watching an episode on HBO about Hiroshima. I do like depressing history shows about death.

I did get to watch America's Next Top Model (thanks Cassie for getting me hooked). I am really amazed how mean girls can be. Why to we always pick on the weak? To make ourselves look better? I can remember a friend told me one day that everyone was making fun of my socks. I wore the ruffly Sunday School ones. I really didn't think much about fashion back then. I was always a step behind. I know my friend was trying to help me, but it hurt my feelings. I cried to my mom, who of course took me right away to buy new socks.

As I got older the less I needed approval of others, but still hated the thought that someone might talk about me behind their back. Maybe that is way I have always tried to be laid back and every one's friend. Although trust me, I have run into a few people who do not like my personality. Thanks goodness I don't meet those people to often.

Even though I have many "friends", it is few and far the one's I feel safe around. And even the one's I feel safe around, I still go back and think about any conversations I might have had and wonder if I said anything inappropriate. I'll stress about it. I think I get this from my grandma.

I have decided the best way to feel good about yourself is to get out and focus on other's needs. When I sit at home and think about all the negative things in my life I loose focus and become depressed.

Well, Heath is screaming is head off and I am loosing my focus. I can just say that I am excited about the future and the opportunities that lay ahead!!