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Mucky Monday

I've not been myself lately. I think I have seasonal depression. I am self diagnosing myself. I am being to negative and less encouraging. I am going to be hard on myself. I am going to get over this "feeling" !

I hate not having any energy. I can't even bring myself to do normal household chores. Maybe I have over done it this month. I slept completely through the night Friday. I can't tell you the last time I have had uninterrupted sleep. Maybe it is catching up with(lack of good sleep).

Know I am not writing this out of pity or attention. I am writing to be true to myself. To make myself aware of how times like these will pass. I am going to focus my attention on things that are good and uplifting. I want to watch a good comedy. (I am taping King of Queens , Doug gets lost in the woods. ) Now my font is bold and I can't figure out why!

A couple of nights ago I laid in bed thinking dark thought about how hard life really is. Who really wants to be a grown up and make grown up decisions? Sometimes I feel like an outsider looking in on life. Like an out of body experience. Secretly wondering who I am ! How did I get to be in my thirties? How am I capable of taking care of two children? I am I good mom or am I selfish? Who do I put first in my life?

I truly believe Satan wants me to doubt myself. He delights in our self destruction. He sees are weaknesses as an opportunity. When I am in a funk, I am not focusing on serving God. I dwell on thoughts of depression and what is wrong with me. What a waste of time. I know better. I have no one to blame but myself.

Writing and being honest with myself helps. I have no where to hide. I have to make a choice. Am I going to stay in this "funk" or move on!?!

.........I let you know tomorrow.

Pumkin Friday

Today we went to pick out our pumpkin. You can see pics on the other site. I had debated Green Meadows, but decided to wait until Jeff can go and it is a little cooler. We had lunch at the mall with my friend Angela. Chick-fl-a was crazy. I ate a sub instead. Philly Cheese Steak Sub! I also ran into my friend Cara. I used to teach next to her. Her kids are beautiful.

I did finish mopping the floors and cleaning the bathrooms. I only have a huge pile of clothes waiting for me. Maybe next week. I always make sure I have enough clothes to last more than 2 weeks. I am lazy, lazy, lazy!

Grandma's 80th Bday

I normally post my pics on my other site. In honor of my Grandma, I thought I would post them here instead. We had a small family get together. I enjoyed it. I am overwhelmed by big parties. She had a great time. Both of her kids were there, my brother, and cousin. I tried to get a family picture, but haven't figured out the timer thing to well yet!

Thursday Funk

Today is the first day I have had coffee since Sunday. Mostly because I am to lazy to fix it. But I am tired this week and thought it might help. I am really tired. Yesterday I spent most of the day trying to wake up. I think most of it is interrupted sleep. But this is OK! Friday I get to stay at the Gaylord Palms with my mom. No kids!

I can't get back into a routine of Quiet Times. I know this is effecting my mood. I can't seem to get back to reading at all. I am not very passionate lately. I have no one to blame but myself. I hate when I am like this, because it is wasted time. I take for granted that I live in a country that lets be even own a Bible.

I have to take Heath and run around for a little while. I know I will regret it, but tomorrow I have both of them at home. I am keeping him home today. He sounds horrible,but is full of energy. I'll be surprised if I escape it.

Ta-Ta for now!

Pad Thai

Tonight I made Pad Thai. I was a little worried because it took fish oil and you know how I feel about fish! It turned out pretty good. I made taco salad last night and about burnt my mouth. I decided to put jalapenos in it!

Heath is the most active sick person I know. He got choked on his snot threw up and five minutes later is jumping around the living room!

I have a feeling it is going to be a long night!!

My Mind

I knew what I wanted to write about last night, but soon forgot. So, I'll recap on my day. I spent most of it at the salon. I haven't had my hair colored in a couple of years. I was a little shocked at the ticket price and would have never done it, if I had known how much it would cost. Buyer's Remorse!

I love the color, but I am sure I will have my "critics"! Life is to short not to have fun with your hair.

I also went to Target to get our costumes. Jeff is wearing his dad's coaching shorts. The tight short ones. I will have to post a picture on Sat.

Heath is still in bed. I don't think he is feeling well. My son never stops. Even when he has a fever, so I am a little worried.

I am going to think for a little while and see if I can remember.

Church

I am so glad we can be so honest and raw. I was thinking about how some of the members of my old church would have responded. I can see the commotion and trips to the ER it would have caused. Why must we pretend these issues don't exist or skirt around the issue. I was so glad Pastor Byron offered so many solutions and help that is out there. I wasn't aware of all the great ministries out there for pornography problems.

Church cannot stay the same. Our culture is always evolving and changing. Issues are not the same. Statistics have changed. And maybe issues are the same, but need different solutions.

I am so glad I am at C3. Church is better that I ever imagined. I love all the new faces. It is a special place to be a see all the new growth taking place!!

Maybe I spoke to fast

My daughter is running around playing now. What to do?!?

It is Evil!

Why does it show it's ugly face this time of year?
And sometimes again in the Spring!
I would rather have a tooth pulled
I would rather have a waxing
I would rather step in dog pooh
I would rather step on a tack
I would rather , I would rather......

THE STOMACH FLU HAS HIT!
(Kaelyn is the first victim)

Back to Blogging

I am officially rested now. I have taken two very much needed long naps this weekend.

The past week was very eventful. My father, his wife, and my grandmother came down for a visit. I am not used to having that many people in my house. Trust me, there was no where to hide.

Church was awesome. I loved all the media and set design. Glad to be back after 3 weeks of not being in service.

Tomorrow is my grandmother's 80th birthday. So, another trip to Melbourne. It will be fun seeing my other family.

My two sides of the family are so different.

I am ready to dig deeper in my life. I hate getting caught up in day to day life. Maybe because I like change so much. I can't do the same routine all the time.

I keep thinking how Christmas will be here before you know it. I don't think I am quite ready. Maybe it is the weather. I wish for snow flurries this year again. Remember it snowed downtown!!

I am ready for jeans, sweaters, and long shirts. Mostly because I am tired of shaving my legs and trying to tan!

I might regret the 2 or 3 hour nap I took today. But I am catching up on TV.

Good night!

OK, I am a slacker

I promise to get back to writing. When my Dad is around, my mind goes to mush. I have some things to say. Hopefully tomorrow. I miss everyone and I am looking forward to a normal routine!

Wednesday?

I have family in town, so I am not able to get much writing done. I finally caught up on some sleep last night. I was close to a break down.

I forgot to tell the funniest part of my trip. Jeff and I did not want to go to formal night, so we decided to go to Senior Frogs for dinner. It is the only restaurant closest to the docks that is open past 5 pm. While I was there a guy said to me, "I don't mean to be rude, but you look like you smoke weed?" And then went on to offer me the purest cocaine, x , and some of the best weed I've ever had. Maybe it was my bloodshot eye from the dog. I think he was an undercover cop.

BTW- I have never done any of the above drugs. I freak out if I mix an aspirin and NyQuil!

Back From Cruising!

Jeff and I had a nice get away. The weather wasn't all that great, but we still managed to get burned. I will post some pictures soon. My dad is due in at anytime. When I get a free moment I will get more blogging in!

Love ,ME

I Forgot My Title!

I thought I would write in a color that would remind me of the Bahamas!!

I was a little worried I would not get everything done today, but I did. I even washed my sheets!

I dragged Angie to the Ladies Home Show out at the convention center. It only took as an hour to figure out where to park and get tickets!

I did buy this razor less hair removal kit. (As I am writing the spell check is going crazy). I am not totally convinced it works. But my "stash" looks better! I even let a few ladies feel my legs after some older man with his zipper down(which he was clueless) rub some sandpaper looking thing on my leg. OK, that just sounded dirty. What can I say, cheap thrills at the convention center! It really was innocent!

I am currently waiting for Jeff so we can watch the "Office" together! What is it about watching a show both you and your spouse enjoy together! I here him coming! Later!!

The Gardener

I think my new hobby is going to be gardening. I need to stay out of the stores. I might even try to attempt to grow some plants from seeds. I bought a new plant book at the book store. Fail-Safe plants for Florida.

I love the Canna. I have them growing in numerous places in my yard. They take up dead space and are easy to maintain. The regrow beautifully every year!!

I also bought some Siam Tulips. I have them in some containers, but I will have to plant them soon.

I think I might have to take a trip to Lucas Nursery. I can walk around for hours looking!!

Mosquitoes Suck.....Literally

I am trying to enjoy the outside with my children, but the mosquitoes are horrible! I have 5-6 bites itching me like a crazy women.

Today I had to wait for ever to get my iphone replaced. I didn't drop it, but it had a mark on the side. The guy told me that pretty soon they are not going to replace phones with any type of damage. If you want to know what happened....ask me. I dare not tell the story of the phone, afraid they may come get it.


I did get the new Cesar Millan book. I really like the way he writes. I suggest anyone reads his books before getting a new dog. I made many mistakes with Brewer in the beginning, but know I am doing better with his training. I am actually glad he is back. I can't explain the connection I feel with him. I love his looks. Something about those eyes. OK....that is so sad I just wrote that.

Jeff and I are off on our Anv. Cruise on Friday. I love it! I wish we could go twice a year. I look forward to our time together, no interruptions. When we get back my Dad, his wife, and my grandmother are coming for the week. They have not seen Heath since he was 4mo.!

Speaking of Heath. His teacher complemented how well behaved and cute he is. I am so glad. I was afraid he ran around screaming all the time!

Anyways, time to go be with the family!!

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You've got to read the church sign of the month on this site!

Monday.....

I am not sure where to even begin. This weekend was quiet, yet eventful. We went to Melbourne to see our new niece Baby Kate. She too, has inherited the red hair of her siblings. It think it is beautiful.

I did receive Brewer back Sat. afternoon, with mixed emotions. I really did miss him. I am going to break him. I bought a choke chain and walks are much smoother. I let him run all over us before, because he seemed so fragile. Times are a changing.

I hate when I miss church. Especially this past Sunday and the celebration of the sale of the property. The adventure ahead of us is going to be awesome and life changing. I am so excited that are main mission is to reach the community.

I have so much on my mind lately. I will try and blog about it soon.

Love, me

You'll never guess.....

who's coming home? Brewer. I guess it is not working out for them and their other animals. I am going to get home tomorrow.

I have mixed emotions. I was finally feeling at little more at peace. I guess be careful what you ask for. I wish they could have waited until the cruise was over!!!

BTW- I am thinking about changing my blog name to- TWO HEADED TURTLE

Missionary?

I was thinking about my church and how we want to focus on the community. I feel like we are Missionaries in Orlando. But the truth of the matter is I get overwhelmed by thoughts and ideas and have no clue where to begin. Or I might not want to really take action, just be all talk. It is much easier to get wrapped up in everyday routine and activities.

I truly have no idea what it is to sacrifice or be without. I can guess, but I have never experienced it for myself. Even the drama in my life cannot compare with what some people in this world do just to survive another day in this world.

I look around my house and see all the stuff I have accumulated. Money wasted. Things barely used. What I throw away!

How do I stop? I know the answer, but choose to ignore myself. I wonder why I can make myself depressed and sulk in self misery! I really feel I need to make a difference and a change in my lifestyle.

Not that I want to like like a Monk, but I need to think twice about the choices I make and is there something better I can spend my time or money doing?

Today is Tuesday?

I am losing track of the days of the week.

I spent the day at Walmart and Home Depot. I also hit the local Cracker Barrel with Amanda and her parents. It was YUM! I had no problem finishing my plate.

I spent an hour just walking around Home Depot dreaming up projects I could do around the house. I am a big dreamer.

It Just Got Better!

Jeff just brought me a blizzard from the DQ! Best husband ever!

My Monday Continues......

• I finished the door, it is now white!
  
• I secretly look at adoptable dogs
• I wish Joey would snuggle with me
• Heath has no clothes, I must wash them
• We are out of toilet paper, Heath shoved the last roll in the there!
• I should go to the gym, but I really only want to tan
• Tomorrow I must break(I just spelled it brake) my Target rule and get some rods for the windows and new door knobs.
  
• I have a list of things I need and know I will forget
• Two weeks until my cruise
• Found out you can take Amtrack to Savannah for $60 RT
• I live for vacations and hanging out
  

Happy Monday

I am doing better if I stop thinking about all the good times with Brewer and focus on working around the house. I think I miss him the most when he would cuddle. Jeff told me to cuddle with the kids.

Angie and Andrea saved the day by taking me out to Panera. Heath was really good. He even got a compliment. I think he must be sick!

More later....

Turtles